Would you be nervous?

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As I’ve written about many times here, I’m a hypochondriac. In other words, every seven or eight months I find a new disease that I’m dying from. In the past, it’s ranged from testicular cancer to stomach cancer; from ALS to brain tumor. I went for several months of therapy, which—at the time—was great. I relaxed, felt good about attacking a problem, etc.


About two or three months ago, I started waking up with tingling in my hands and fingers. About a month ago, while we were in Spain, I started having heaviness in my left leg. Not normal heaviness, not a cramp or strain. Like, a numb/heavy sensation that made it awkward (not hard, but awkward) to walk. The left leg almost always feels heavy. It’s not a pretend, hypo weight. It’s real. Feels real. Not impeding my actual ability to walk … but I feel it. Especially when I wake up.

Tingling+leg problems=me freaking out. Which I’m doing. On the one hand, I remind myself I’m a hypo, and I always think I’m dying. On the other hand, just because you’re paranoid doesn’t mean they’re not after you.

I want to see a doctor. The Wife thinks I should wait until I’m actually struggling with something. Meaning, I literally can’t walk or pick things up. I don’t know … the bad thoughts are taking root. MS. ALS. Something … really … bad.

Is it live? Is it Memorex?

What would you do?


14 thoughts on “Would you be nervous?”

  1. Go to the doctor and be done with worrying once he tells you everything is ok. I really thought carpal tunnel when you mentioned your hands. Maybe all the walking in Spain made your legs feel tired…it’s different then running….

  2. Yeah, let’s wait until you can’t walk or something equally bad happens. That’s the ticket. I know, the wife’s been throught this before with you, how many times I can’t begin to guess. Go to the freakin’ doctor already, will you?

  3. Keith Ryan Cartwright

    It’s only one leg and, if you’re like me, you have two of them. I think you should just go ahead and amputate it. Then you have nothing to worry about.

  4. So I’m not going to opine since I’m related to both of you, but this is where having good insurance really matters? Would all those people recommending you go see the doc continue to do so if they had to pay for it (and all the tests that are sure to be ordered) out of their own pockets? It is a lot easier to say “better safe than sorry” when you don’t have any skin in the game.

    So, looking at this as a rational economic actor, the question here is what is the expected value of your peace of mind? If it is more than the cost of the doctor + the psychic cost you will endure from your wife, then you should go, otherwise not. 🙂

  5. I had a pain in my stomach. Ignored it…must be gas. Or indigestion. Eh, I’m a guy…I don’t need to go to the doctor.

    Now, I’ve had two years worth of chemotherapy, a stem cell tranpslant, and oh yeah, they removed my spleen…the source of the pain in my abdomen.

    If I had to do it all over again, I’d have visited the doctor once the abdominal pain became persistent…I wouldn’t have waited until it knocked me on my ass.

  6. I’m similarly hypo and I’ve actually had the tingling. It could be anything, and by anything I mean 100 benign things you’ve never heard of. That being said knowing is always better than speculating-ESPECIALLY for a hypo.

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